Sunday, February 14, 2016

Schizofrenic writing and social media cleanse

Hi loves! Did you notice my new lay-out already? I'm so in love with it! Hopefully, I won't get bored by it anytime soon. I was already growing tired of my previous lay-out, but because I don't really have the luxury to spend a few days working on something new I decided to venture out and look for a premium template online. With success as you can see!

I do not have a particular style. I have style, period. - Sefanja Rubina

Today I want to discuss a personal matter, although I haven't really done so in a while! Back in the days, maybe the first 5 years of blogging, my blog was simply an online diary and creative outlet. I posted whenever I felt I needed to share something, from food files and OOTD's to wishlists and rants about school/work. My blog was pretty much a collection of randomness, basically me. This worked out fine for me.

But in the following years, blogging got more and more attention, and I got extremely lost trying to fit myself into a mold. I refused to call myself a fashionblogger, because I blogged about more than just fashion. So in which category did I belong?

Know, first, who you are, and then adorn yourself accordingly. - Epictetus

I was told by people and taught by literature to choose a standing. In order to make your blog (and/or brand) a success you must make choices and decide on a focus point! But I had so much to share with the world! I succumbed to demands and split my blog persona; Skinnyfat Life vs Skinnyfat Style and Sefanja Rubina vs Kulturu.

Liberal arts graduates, unlike regular university students, know a little bit of everything instead of everything about a little bit.

A few weeks ago I noticed my motivation for blogging slowly started to vanish. It felt as if writing was a task for me to complete agaist my will. So I took a step back and decided to go on a minor social media cleanse. No more Facebook, no Instagram, no Whatsapp. No more Youtube, no more blogging.

Stop paying attention to other people's grass and start mowing your own lawn! Maybe the grass is greener on the other side because it is fake!

Tbh, I haven't really had any troubles with it up until now. And what's funny, is that I've been taking a break to not only clear my head, but to focus on school too. Guess what I'm graduating in? Marketing and social media branding, lol.

But the main thing I learned the past week especially is the following. My blog ain't no damn marketing or branding project! So why treat it as one? Indeed, a lucky few have managed to make an income from their blogging and/or Youtube-ing. And that's great for them! Many of them started their grind a long time ago to get where they are right now. Perhaps if I would've continued posting articles and/or videos since 2008 I could've turned my blog into a business as well. But there's no need to dwell in the past.

I've gone identity mad. - Mika

Blogging is a business now, and the market of (over)supply has become a bit saturated. I, however, shouldn't be feeling that pressure on my shoulders. Because I'm not in the business of blogging for the money and fame. I simply aspire to inspire through my writing. And yes, it would definitely be a bonus to turn my writing into something lucrative. But that shouldn't cloud my judgement and focus of simply wanting to express my creative side.

What you think of me is really none of my business.

My blog is a true reflection of me and my personality. And what am I? A melting pot first class. Don't have a fashion style to adhere to, don't have a favorite music genre, no favorite cuisine. Gosh, my personality is not even consistent throughout the day! At times I feel more comfortable blending with the background, and other times I thrive being in the spotlight. I mix Primark with Louis Vuitton, and despite my creative nature enjoy working behind a desk as well. No boundaries, no categories, yes to trancendence!

Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You. - Dr. Seuss

Again, I'm a melting pot. So why couldn't my blog be exactly that? And thus, I made the decision to merge my Kulturu blog with Sefanja Rubina. Because together with beauty, life(style) and what not, Kulturu is also part of who I am and makes me, me. I understand that people categorize everything around them to make sense of the world, but some people *ahum divergents* just don't fit into pre-defined molds.

People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those are are doing it.

I'll admit, when I proofread this post I doubted myself. Being such a wordy and long post, maybe it's less readable or perhaps not interesting enough to attract readers? But then I remembered, this is my blog and my creative outlet. I don't write to please others, I write to share my thoughts and hopefully reach likeminded people with my words.

I am an artist, a writer, a creator, creative. My input is inspiration, which can't be storebought or factory produced. That's how I work and am able to produce content. I could write another article to educate people in what sense writers and/or bloggers could also be considered artists, but you know what? I'm too old for that sh*t and tired of explaining myself. This is me, raw, pure, and unedited.

Deal with it.

p.s. Yes, I'm a liberal arts & sciences graduate, so I was academically trained to know a little bit about lots of subjects instead of a lot about one or few subjects. :)

Although I definitely intend to use my body as a canvas to showcase art on, the lovely lady on the picture is not me, but Levy Tran. Soon.